The first time I came back, he was there. He was there and... I didn't think it could change. I didn't think I would leave again. And I never once considered he'd be gone when I came back.
There's so much I should have said, done.
No time has passed and all the time has passed and my heart hurts. Is this how Cecily felt, losing Cullen? Will it last?
Probably.
Pain never really fades, does it?
In any case, I love you. I'm sorry I couldn't save you and I'll try to find some way. I will. If I can do what I can, I can find you a thousand lightyears away from me. I'll fucking save you.
I bet if you were here, I wouldn't end up getting strangled again, don't you? Fuck. You won't get any of this. It doesn't matter, right?
All right, that's it, I'm putting this away for awhile. [ And yet she ends it with a sketch of Mello, a flower crown dipping in front of his face, obscuring his eyes. Eyes she loved to look at. Eyes that saw everything.
DAY II — Again.
There's so much I should have said, done.
No time has passed and all the time has passed and my heart hurts. Is this how Cecily felt, losing Cullen? Will it last?
Probably.
Pain never really fades, does it?
In any case, I love you. I'm sorry I couldn't save you and I'll try to find some way. I will. If I can do what I can, I can find you a thousand lightyears away from me. I'll fucking save you.
I bet if you were here, I wouldn't end up getting strangled again, don't you? Fuck. You won't get any of this. It doesn't matter, right?
All right, that's it, I'm putting this away for awhile. [ And yet she ends it with a sketch of Mello, a flower crown dipping in front of his face, obscuring his eyes. Eyes she loved to look at. Eyes that saw everything.
Eyes that are now gone. ]